Smilez Alwayz

2010-04-12T21:03:00.003+08:00

Friends! I have moved! Ask me if you wanna know my new url.
If not, check facebook! (:

2010-04-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

This time, I guess is the furthest it can go.

It can however go a lot further to the extend of hating but I don't think that will happen.

Let's just wait and see what will happen next.

2010-04-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

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2010-04-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

OMG, I swear I never liked my parents. Piss me off! They never ever understand what's going on in my world and how much time I take to complete something. Argh, I don't wanna talk about it. I shall not be bothered by their selfishness for now!

I'm currently working on Planning for F&N and omg, it's super long. It's like never ending. One dish after another. Oh boy, I think I will have to burn the midnight oil tonight!

I ate steamboat for dinner. While eating, I was thinking of something. It was like this sudden piece of memory came back to me. I remember there's this person and me, we were sought of facing the same kind of problem. This other person was like our rescuer, this person said if we needed help, we can find or talk to this person. I giggled to myself thinking of how in those days, life was painful but we managed to live each day with great joy.

Ahh, I just crapped. I shall go back and work on my planning!

2010-04-11T14:34:00.001+08:00

OMG, I was having lunch and I was watching Teen Cribs Marathon on MTV. It's like a show showing all the millionaire kids, how their house is like and stuff like that. OMG, the house they were introducing was AWESOME! They have a bowling alley, an indoor basket ball court/volley ball, an arcade room (With rock climbing wall, dance dance revolution, a real DJ space and lots more) and they have spa (With real people doing pedicure and massages for them)! It's freaking cool man.

I'm currently working on my coursework. It's like never ending!! Piss me off man! Hmph!

I think I'm gonna cook tonight. Haha

2010-04-11T12:44:00.000+08:00

Someone's watching over me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

2010-04-11T12:36:00.000+08:00

"Who's That Girl?"

There were places we would go at midnight
There were secrets that nobody else would know
There's a reason but I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
I thought they all belonged to me

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?
Oh no, living my life

Seems like everything's the same around me
Then I look again and everything has changed
I'm not dreaming so I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
She's everywhere I wanna be

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?

I'm the one who made you laugh
Who made you feel
And made you sad
I'm not sorry
For what we did
For who we were
I'm not sorry
I'm not her

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?
Oh no, living my life

2010-04-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

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2010-04-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

AHHHH!

THIS FREAKS ME OUT!!

2010-04-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

2010-04-10T22:16:00.001+08:00

Aloha angels!

I had to wake up super early this morning cos of Math extra lesson. OMG, I almost couldn't get out of bed but thank god I made it. I slept at 11pm+ the day before and yet I still don't have enough sleep! Oh wells, anyway I managed to survive during math lesson but it was like kinda warm in the AVA cos people were complaining cold whereas people like me was complaining hot! Haha!

After that, went for "qing ming" (Don't exactly know how to explain) and met many of my distant relatives and cousins. I was soo hungry and I when we could finally eat, I was damn glad! :D

Reached home around 1.45pm and slept for a while before I went for Bio tuition at 3pm. Not long after I came back, I had to bring the bunnies down again. Damn him. I taught skinny and Zhong Zhong aka medium how to walk down the stairs and OMG, I really think Zhong Zhong is like her mom Ying Ying. She is so princess like, she tries to walk down but was so scared then she just sat there. Her color is same as Ying Ying's one. Then I brought Skinny out, hoping she can learn it fast and Zhong Zhong can follow her. But no, Zhong Zhong is really like her mommy. Haha, I didn't get the chance to let Fat Fat try but oh wells, she will get her chance next time.

I put Shen Shen (Daddy) at the stairs and skinny behind him. Shen Shen walked down and skinny followed. Cool man. But the steps are a little high for them cos they are quite short so Shen Shen actually waited for his little girl to walk down the stairs before going down another flight of stairs. Woosh, first time I see Shen Shen so caring! :D Oh, there was this black cat that was interested in them. That cat went super close to my rabbits and my rabbits went so close to it that it jump back to the pavement from the grass. Haha.

I had dinner with my dad. My bro had something on and my mom had wedding dinner to attend. We waited super long for our steamboat. Then when we were about to finish, something interesting happened. There was this couple across our table quarreling and scolded her so loud. They were speaking in Cantonese I think. The guy got violent and he threw I think the chilly sauce and his bracelet onto the floor. Both my dad turned and omg, that woman sitting opposite their table, her hair and shirt had chilly sauce and that couple was a little angry, like they demand an apology or explanation. The friend of the quarreling couple gave her a tissue and it freaking dropped on the floor. The guy friend of the violent guy didn't even bother to pick up the tissue. Then all of them left. The woman which had her shirt stained with chilly sauce was sought of unhappy.

I told myself then that I will never marry a guy that's can be this violent when he gets angry or does not know how to chill or calm down. I want a husband that's fun and loves to laugh like me! Of cos he must know how to control his temper! (:

Alright, I'm gonna go do coursework! Tata!

2010-04-10T17:27:00.000+08:00

2010-04-09T22:01:00.001+08:00

Career seminar was awesome today! I love the personality test thingy and I find it very accurate. It's damn cool! I love it! It's like the best and most accurate personality test I've come across yet. The person whom went through with us how to read the graphs is damn funny. He think he belongs to the "I" group out of "DISC". I belong to the "I" group too! Haha, it's pretty easy to read your friends now. We started reading each other like pro's outside the hall.

I attended the "Hospitality and Tourism" course by Temasek Poly and omg, it was fun! I think I was like brain washed by it. But it was really awesome like I know once I take this course, I graduate, I know which jobs I can apply for. The freebies the speaker was giving out were awesome. I got one of the limited T-shirt for answering the question correctly! This course has a wide range of jobs which we can apply for after graduating. Woosh, loving it man!

The other talk I attended was by Republic Poly (Sports and Wellness). It's not exactly very interesting. I'm not very interested in it. I do like the part where they talk about the outdoor activities however. It looks fun and I love outdoors, the "heights" are thrilling! (:

Oh and CJC's principal gave us a talk and OMG, I think I was like being brain washed too. It sounds super interesting and fun man! But after talking to Illya and Eunice, the things they were telling me were kinda true. It's like you get an advancement from those coming out from JC's life cos you have already experienced what it will be like to be independent and self discipline just like the outside world during Poly, whereas the JC graduates will need to adapt to the real world kinda style when they step into University. Oh wells, different people have different views.

Anyway, I have been brain washed today and damn, it's really confusing me. I think I wanna try DPA so that I can attend the extra module before the release of the O'level's results and be guaranteed a place in Temasek Poly (Hospitality and Tourism). There must be some criteria to be met of cos. I am interested in it too!

Oh wells, this day has been very informational, from the route to JC, the route the Poly and also my personality test.

Dinner with my 4/8 babies at Pizza Hut was awesome! It was damn fun! All in all, 11 people was present out of 15. Majority attended and I felt like there's a closer bond with each and everyone of us. We interacted more with one another during dinner. I wasn't sitting with my usual friends and that was good cos I interacted more with my other classmates and we had lots of fun. Giggled and laugh like a happy family! :D

Oh well's I shall write until here.

~Love my ever so loving 4/8~

2010-04-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

But I ask myself: "Do you even give a damn?"

2010-04-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

2010-04-08T19:52:00.001+08:00

Ahh, I finally understood vectors after going for tuition. I know how to do the entire piece of paper that Mrs K gave us after understanding how to do vectors from my tuition teacher. So easy and fun! (For now...) Oh wells, tomorrow is career seminar and I hope it's not gonna bore me. Those that I'm going to attend is not even those courses I consider to take. Maybe after the career seminar then perhaps I will have some interest for it.

Wahh, freak my dad man! I sleep from 5 to 6pm then he freaking woke me up to bring the rabbits down. Seriously, I need my sleep so that I have the energy to do coursework at night!! ARGH! PISS OFF! If I feel sleepy later and cannot concentrate on my work, it's so gonna be his fault! He never understood why I sleep for so long! Hmph!

Whenever I think about the quarrels that we have, I will giggle to myself. It's like everything seems so childish and I think at this stage of life, we should be loving one another and not have quarrels all the time. I giggle to myself when we try to settle it. (Hehe, no idea why!)

OMG, I should have taken 155 from toa payoh interchange instead of 135 from ang mo kio interchange while going home from tuition. I freaking miss my bus stop cos I was having a deep dream and when I woke up, I realise I was at circuit road which is somewhat near macperson. It's like another estate already la! Argh, had to alight and detour. I could have reached home at 4+ but instead by the time I reach home, it was already 5pm.

Okay, I'm gonna zoom off to do coursework! It's a heavy load! :(

2010-04-07T23:45:00.001+08:00

Five Loaves And Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

2010-04-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

I was just looking back at all my previous posts from march. Sad to say, I think there were more negative than positive pictures. Not something good at all.

Those are the past so it doesn't really matter much. But when I see my recent posts, I wonder if one part of my life is still kinda "crippled" or just "hurt".

I care but I'm not gonna show it.

2010-04-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

"Rumors"

Saturday steppin' into the club
The music makes me wanna tell the DJ
Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
(but not the way you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
But not the way you want me to

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)

What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live

Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

2010-04-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

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2010-04-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

Woosh, today was a fun day! POA was the first 3 blocks and omg, we talked about a lot of random stuff with Mrs Siau and it was fun and interesting to know more about the incident as well as EASTER EGGS! Speaking of the eggs, I couldn't find the egg that's been hidden at the roundabout there which I like to call it the "Secret Heart". ): Then came Physics, hehe, it was awesome when Mr Ng talked about bulbs. I love it when he applies things around us into Physics. I think it's like a sought of test to see whether you are observant enough after living in Singapore for 16 years. Hahaha! He asked the class where the bulb (he drew it) can be found and I immediately answered the "Durian Stalls". Hehe, the class burst out laughing. Then he was quite happy and asked how I know. So I said by accident "When I drive past those Durian stalls..." he was like "You drive ah?" Haha, fun fun. Then he also asked where the meter reading thing could be found and I also answered straight away "Outside my house". I like to answer this kind of questions, it makes me think and keeps me awake plus it also test whether I'm observant enough to know anot. Physics today was fun! I think the class enjoyed it cos there were laughter here and there.

Next came Chinese, I was doing something else during Chinese and though I know it's wrong, I did listen to what lao shi was talking about. I multi-task by listening to the oral of how students should reply during Chinese oral as well as the points lao shi pointed out. Like the hot topic right now is of cos the Resort world Casino. Then it's just those common stuff like the Singaporeans have to pay $100, more hotlines available to help people kick off the addiction, government encouraging Singaporeans not to enter, economy increase and of cos more family problems will occur (Loan sharks, suicidal). History was someone okay. Miss Seet was kinda in a bad mood and omg, I didn't know we were late. My class room's clock was not working and gosh, I really didn't know I was late. Oh wells, I think I did okay for the LON test.

After that was English and we had it in the AVA. Haha, this time I didn't feel like sleeping. I was busy writing my essay and I think I screwed it up. After that was assembly. It was about some Jazz dance with a lot of combination of different kind of dance steps. I didn't have much interest in it cos I have no interest in those kind of stuff. Shortly after it ended, went back for Math extra lesson and Mrs Kunna did Vectors with us. Not bad, I think I kinda am able to grasp the concept. But omg, I was like dying in the heat plus the noise from the construction site.

After that, went library to do homework with Steph, Stal and Hui Teng. Haha, talked about funny stuff and laugh our heads off. After that we went to buy ice balls and ate at the play ground near Steph's house. Damn fun sia. Talk and talk and eat and eat. Laugh like there's never anything we cannot laugh about. Damaging Hui Teng's phone was the best. OMG, we laugh and laugh cos we threw her phone onto the tree and literally damage it. It's a freaking strong phone, haha, cannot spoil it one. We were given the permission from her to damage her phone okay, haha, we are not some gangsters. The reason I shall not state it here. Hehe.

Anyway, we laugh and laugh and around 6+pm, we went home. Fun and thrilling is what was installed for us today! I love all of them! All my little angels! :D

2010-04-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

My horoscope today

Some people like to think there's a reason for everything, and if you happen to run across one of them soon, you're likely to give them a good talking-to. There have been a few too many recent events that make you question what the heck is going on, and what exactly you're supposed to do about it. It may be that the universe is telling you to do nothing -- to just accept the events without judgment. For now, that'll have to do.

2010-04-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

2010-04-06T20:44:00.003+08:00

You entered my life not very long ago. We were just normal friends and didn't really have much communication with one another. As the first year went by, we started to know each other better. Along the way, I don't think there was ever any misunderstanding between us, maybe just disagreements but it's not that big to create a "cold war" like others. That year went by and by the end of that year, we came to know each other even better and our friendship became stronger and much more deep. The year after that year was the most awesome one cos I think I shared my everything with you and we had a lot of interaction in many ways.

In every friendship, there's always a misunderstanding and we sure do have a lot of misunderstandings this year (Mostly just me). We had a few misunderstandings here and there last year but they were minor. This year, I like to take it as we have 2 major misunderstandings and yup, I agree it's me whom started it all. (I need no explanation from you to clear my misunderstandings of you) It started simply because (like what you said) I don't understand you well enough.

At that time, I never knew a friendship that is so strong can be destroyed so easily and I witnessed it myself that it is really that easy to trigger the bomb. I was the one whom triggered it and wow, what a big blast! I didn't know how you felt then but I definitely felt angry. Angry at myself for being so daring to destroy or even put it to the test. I cried then. No idea why but I cried. It was really silly of me to blow up at you when I as a friend should never have done so. I didn't know you were under pressure and was forced to say it. It was my mistake. I acted so rush on that day that I barely know what I did to you until a day or 2 later. It was a devastating piece of mess and somehow, we managed to clear it.

This time, I don't know why, I have to just put it to the test once again. I never learned my lesson. I'm a failure. It's like when I'm bitten once or twice, I'm not shy at all. I have to be bitten like five six times to learn the lesson. A simple "sorry" will not be that easy to wash away the things I said to you. It was really ridiculous of me to make that matter seem so big. I know I really shouldn't have done so and I should have controlled myself. As a friend or even an outsider, I feel that it's never right for anyone to hurt someone regardless of how much you hate or dislike that person. I understood this only after it happened. Why did I realise it so late? It was probably cos I never did thought of this matter and I left it aside for quite some time. Now that my life is much stable, I brought it out again and indeed, I felt so foolish. Don't know why I did it. Don't know why I must do it again. The biggest question is: Will history repeat itself?

I leave the decision to you...

2010-04-06T19:17:00.001+08:00

Freak sia, yesterday I couldn't sleep very well because something was bothering me. OMG, I was toss and turn in bed and I jerk a little and ahhhh, I kicked the wall a little hard. OUCH! It came in contact with my big toe which has an open blister at the front. It hurts to the max!!

I was super tired when the teacher's were teaching. Today is one of those days where I feel super super tired and I can barely open my eyes to look at the paper or look at the teacher. My mind somehow swayed at times to something else which I shouldn't be thinking of then. Aye, why did that have to happen man? Oh wells, had class comm meeting, wasn't that bad. OMG, I almost died during SS extra lessons cos it's in the afternoon and it's super hard to concentrate when you feel like sleeping. Whatever, had lunch with Stephanie and Hui Teng after that and went to Stephanie's estate to do homework. Talk and laugh until like there's no tomorrow. I LOVE MY FRIENDS! :D

I needa do POA later and History LON notes. Woosh, I shall go eat dinner now! (=

2010-04-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

I wanna use FML now, but I won't cos I think it's not a very nice phrase.

Piss Me Off may be what I'm feeling (It's not even a FEELING) right now. I'm not piss with anyone, I'm piss with myself. Probably cos of my actions/words/nonsense. I have no idea why after I read it, I sought of found my feelings again. For the past few days (or perhaps when nationals started), I think I was just too busy being busy and have no clue or idea what I'm feeling. Today nationals came to an end and I still don't have any feeling or a clue of what I felt after my match. Even after coach's talk. And now, I felt a little ___ (I don't know what's the right word for it) in my eyes after I read it.

I have a lot to say and I hope I have the courage to write it down.

However, I shall write tomorrow (If I have the time) since it's midnight already. Time to turn in.

2010-04-05T22:57:00.002+08:00

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2010-04-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create

2010-04-05T22:23:00.003+08:00

I think you and her can be really good friends for live. Regardless of how much you hate her at times or dislike her, I know the both of you will still keep in touch. For a simple fact: She can't let go of you. (Not the right phrase to use actually..) Anyhow, I think it's the best choice for the both of you and yup, I wish this 2 persons All The Best.

Next, you came into my life not very long ago. It is funny and weird how we started to get to know each other better. Ever since we got to know each other more, we began to tell each other stuff and the things I told you, I never thought I would ever say it to you. (Cos I didn't know you that well) But as time goes by, you shared with me some of your personal stuff and I too shared some of my personal stuff with you too. Slowly, our friendship blossom and whenever I have something I really need to tell someone or seek for help, I confide it to you. (Cos it's about another person which I can't possibly go and ask her!) This friendship will carry on and I hope it won't die half way. Haha! May you choose the "STRAIGHT" path in your life! (=

Every paragraph which starts with "You came into my life..." it is for someone. Every time, it will be a different person. If you want to know if it's for you/referring to you, you're welcome to ask me (:

2010-04-05T21:16:00.001+08:00

When you awaken in morning’s hush,

I am the swift uplifting rush,

of quiet birds in circle flight,

I am soft stars that shine at night,

Don’t stand beside my grave and cry,

I am not there. I did not die.

2010-04-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

2010-04-05T21:11:00.002+08:00

Somewhere we know that without silence words lose their meaning, that without listening speaking no longer heals, that without distance closeness cannot cure.

2010-04-05T21:10:00.002+08:00

2010-04-05T21:06:00.003+08:00

Jump, don't jump?

That's not the question,

It's whether you dare to or not...

2010-04-05T21:02:00.002+08:00

A girl only needs three things in her life:

love to make her weak,

alcohol to make her strong,

and friends to pick her up when the first two make her hit the ground

2010-04-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

2010-04-05T20:45:00.002+08:00

Life is like a mirror.
If you frown at it, it frowns back.
If you smile at it, it returns the greeting.

2010-04-05T20:30:00.002+08:00

Results: Badminton is OUT of my life! Lost my match and I don't wanna talk about it. IJ lost to Anglican High 1:4. Had a "baluku" (Blue black) on my knee and it hurts. Who the fuck gives a damn anyway? Whatever, the baluku shall be my souvenir for the end of nationals.

Emotionless and hopeless is what I'm fucking feeling right now.

Btw, I know what's going on around me. I can tell when a person is lying or talking about me easily. I know it all. This particular person just had to say one short phrase and that was the key to the Pandora's box. It would not have been easy to guess today's one (Something which feels weird) without some thinking out of the box. That time at the "play land" after the treat, I kinda sense something wrong... I like to think that I'm right about the thing which I guessed. Have a feeling I'm right.

Aye, starting from now, I'm gonna put my entire energy in school work and education. Just NO MORE PLAY, NO MORE FUN, NO MORE FOOLING AROUND.

Had a great long bus ride and good for me to just let everything out.

2010-04-05T00:39:00.002+08:00

OMG! Haha, I finally finished my Chinese essay. I must say it's not very good but oh wells, it's the effort I put in that I know lao shi will see la. Haha.

Anyway, my Dad is an Owl and my aunt and uncle all know. Haha, he wakes up at night and sleeps in the day. So some times/ most of the time, when we have to meet downstairs my house, my family will always be the last there. Haha. Me too, likes to sleep. I think I am owl number 2! Haha. Yes, I love to sleep just like my dad but OMG, there was this period of time I kana scolded for not waking up early and sleeping until 12+1pm during the weekends. Therefore, I learned my lesson, I must wake up before that timing and later in the afternoon, go back and sleep if I need/want to. Haha.

There was I think a civil defense or ambulance siren and omg, my neighbor's dogs barked and I knew my dad would wake up. The minute he wakes up from his sleep, he cannot go back and sleep. He slept since I think 9+10pm. He is now watching television and I am sure he will watch until 4+5am and a while later after that time, it is when I will wake up and go to school. Haha!

I'm packing my bag now and I stopped using the big bag because I find it too bulky plus the fact that I don't have that many books to carry to school so there's not enough books to support the shape and also it's kinda very extra. Lols. Whatever, that bag is rotting in my room! Hehe.

There's competition tomorrow and I don't know if I'm playing so I'm kinda a little bit not very scared of not having enough sleep since I slept this afternoon plus the fact that I may not play tomorrow! (= Usually I will be scared of not getting enough sleep and damn, I will be really tired during the trip and everything is like so blur. Lols.

Ok, I'm done crapping! Nitez! (:

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I swear I hate to socialize with people when I just wake up. I woke up after my super long afternoon nap cos my dad say bring the rabbits down. Argh, I hate to bring them down that often, I need my sleep plus I needa do homework! Anyway, my bro's friends came and they're all from CJC. There's this girl, she's likes to talk and she seems to be able to socialize like super easily. She talked to me then she asked if I wanna go Poly or JC and she say perhaps follow my brother, which is to go CJ. When I heard that I was like damn, why CJC again! It's like everywhere, people's talking about CJC. IJ is affiliated to CJ and many of my seniors whet CJ too. Then badminton also want IJ girls. Wow, I was thinking, if I can make it into CJ, I wanna continue Badminton and it will be like huh, all IJ badminton girls continued their journey in CJ. All in all, I am just tried of people talking about CJ.

Anyway, tomorrow is a big day. Not a super big one, but big enough for me to anticipate patiently for the outcome. I have already mentioned in my previous post so yup, I shall wait and see.

I cannot take my 2.4km again! Crap sia, it sucks to be one of the last few to do. Haha, at least I know I have Divya whom has yet to do it too. Oh wells, tomorrow I will attend Chinese, PE and Math that's all. So for now, I'm gonna chiong my Chinese essay.

Oh, to this particular idiot, I dream of you. Fuck sia, not a good dream. The End! :D

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LOL!

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Woosh, just came back from Bio tuition. I read finish "5 people you meet in heaven" while on my way back home. Quite a good book, I like the way the stories are placed, like you never expect this particular person to have such a great influence in your life.

I am gonna do POA now. Oh boy, I gotta focus man. It's hard to focus when you have so many distractions. You know, one of my greatest distraction is my bed. Haha. Whenever I lie in my bed, I can lie for hours and I can either be sleeping or just thinking about something. It is not the computer which is my distraction to be honest, it is the least expected object I guess. Anyways, I'm gonna try my best to stay awake. I'm gonna do POA now and the night shall be left for Chinese. Darn, I just realised I left my Chinese stuff in school.

Ok, that's it, I'm gonna type my Chinese essay later.

你在无意中发现了好朋友的秘密，心理感到很惊讶。试讲证件事的经过写下来，并谈谈你的感受。

I am someone with short term memory. I don't and can't remember what people say to me in the past. I only remember the really good stuff and the really bad stuff which have influenced me or perhaps left an impact in life. However, I have a great memory with people. I can remember people and I have no idea why I'm so good at identifying people like what they have done to me in the past or which aspect of my life did they play a part in.

I'm talking crap again. Whatever. Gonna stop here for now! ZOOM OFF TO HOMEWORK LAND! (=

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The most selfish 1 letter word: I. Avoid it.

The most satisfying 2 letter word: We. Use it.

The most poisonous 3 letter word: Ego. Kill it.

The most used 4 letter word: Love. Value it.

The most pleasing 5 letter word: Smile. Keep it.

The fastest spreading 6 letter word: Rumour. Ignore it.

The hardest working 7 letter word: Success. Achieve it.

The most enviable 8 letter word: Jealousy. Distance it.

The most powerful 9 letter word: Knowledge. Acquire it.

The most essential 10 letter word: Confidence. Trust it.

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FREAK! I swear this week is definitely not a good week at all. (In terms of the food I eat) My god, I ate Yuki Yaki on Thursday and today I had BBQ steamboat for dinner. It's impossible not to gain weight. As an F&N student, you can't help but be particular of what you eat. It's like when you pick up a food then in your mind, it starts telling you all the good and bad stuff about that food. Like you must remove the visible fats and it's not very healthy because of the oil and fats present. OMG, it's kinder hard to enjoy a meal without being picky/particular with what you eat. So as an F&N student, you are more conscious of what you eat, which is a good thing. (=

Next, my bro just came home and my mom is watching Avatar with the rest of my aunt and uncle at my uncle's house which is just a block away. My dad is drinking with a bunch of friends. I am at home! Happily enjoying myself. Haha kidding, I came back home to do homework. Oh boy, I just spend my time helping my fellow friends to activate their account. Much time was spend on it but it was worth it.

Did I mention that I became a pro at eating Gua Zhi (Sunflower seed)? Haha, yes I master how to eat it fast and clean. I am starting to love it. It keeps my mouth busy and there's a lot of it so need to worry whether it's gonna finish. (: I love munching on things whenever I do something, it keeps my whole body busy. Lol!

Ok, I'm gonna write until here. I'm gonna go do homework. (=

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"We do not remember days, we remember moments."

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As usual, I woke up and used the com while I wait for my mom to buy lunch back. I eat the same thing forever on Saturdays. I never get sick of eating Mee Tai Mak (However you spell it). It's savory and delicious!

I have tuition later at 3pm and now, I'm gonna work on my summary.

Ahh, I think some people or maybe one person plus me have a dilemma on the same topic and the same thing. We don't know whether it's a good thing to win or a bad thing to win for Monday's match. Damn. It's really bad to have a dilemma for something like this. Of cos winning is good, it means we will proceed to the next round which is top 8 (It's hard to get into top 8 for Nationals). Winning means we will have a greater chance of getting top 4 in Nationals. However, the bad thing about winning is that we will have to continue the routine of leaving school early plus not able to finish work when we reach home because all our energy has been drained out and finally, it's nearer the exam dates which is not a healthy thing.

I need the time to study and catch up with my work. I am considered the worst when it comes to time management. I know that even if I have a time table, I won't follow it simply because I am not able to drive myself to do what I'm suppose to do then. It is only when I feel the urge then I start doing something. Everyone needs the time to study but I confirm need it much more then the rest. The rest are able to manage their studies (Well at least they can manage it a little), I on the other hand needs more focus and time to be given to study. So if we win will I be happy? Yes and No. If we lose will I be happy? I just know that coach don't really care about us that much anymore since we are graduating and he doesn't need to put his effort in coaching us so even if we lose, to him it's over. I will be happy because it's all over and I can start studying like any other kid in school. I won't be that sad cos I know the memories lives in me, it can't be washed away.

Oh wells, we shall see whether we win or lose on Monday. I will however, play my best if coach wants me to play. I learn my lesson from Monday's match and this time, I will make it a good one. No disappointment. If I don't play my best, then what's the point of leaving school and going all the way down to such a far place? I can just go home and study. So nope, I won't go there just to waste time. I will go there to make good of the time. (=

Alright enough said, I shall blog later when I'm back from tuition.

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I love those blue eyes and the butterflies!

Cool!

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But who can say what’s best?

That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.

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“Sometimes You’re further than the moon"

&
"Sometimes You’re closer than my skin”

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“Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings - always darker, emptier and simpler.”

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“You can only hold a smile for so long, after that it’s just teeth.”

I agree.

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Life is like a

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Rawr!! I just had my dinner and damn, I feel super full. It's probably cos of the cheese from the risotto.

I have no mood in doing English or rather any other homework. Oh boy, I am not gonna let time slip away. I shall ask my mom if I can switch on the air con later and do my homework then.

~Sometimes, you can concentrate better when your surrounding is not so warm~

If I am given a chance, I would like to ask one question.

Is everything fine with the both of us?

You know I love to talk crap. I have a blog just so I don't have to go to someone else and rant and rumble and talk crap. My blog is like my good friend, she just listens to all my crap and does not comment on me. Haha, I know I'm full of crap but whatever. I remember last time I like to go to Kit Yee to say all the shit I wanna say and she doesn't mind. Haha, must thank her for that. It's not easy to find someone whom will listen to your shit eh?

This world is full of fascinating people.

There are people whom are very sensitive and you cannot make the slightest remark on them if not they will go berserk.

There are people whom loves to gossip and in the end, they tend to be the ones whom are disliked by others.

There are people whom likes to hate (Haters) and usually they are the ones who likes to be friend with the gossip people.

There are people whom likes the attention they get from other people and tend to do stuff that attracts people.

There are people who are happy go lucky where they just let each day pass by without holding on to the negativity or bear grudges.

There's a lot more of other kind of people. These are just the common ones. Oh wells, like I said, the world is full of fascinating people.

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I am gonna cook later. Mushroom soup (Start from scratch, means starts from using corn flour, to water to the ingredients) and Risotto. Oh wells, I hope I won't be too tired to eat. Speaking of food, I feel like making a special kind of jelly for everyone for Christmas. Still pretty long but hmm, I think time is gonna pass by very fast.

Saturday steppin' into the club
The music makes me wanna tell the DJ
Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
(but not the way you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
But not the way you want me to

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)

What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live

Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

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Really?!

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LOLS!

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And I did.

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